Complicated Feeling

Seems like everything is fine now,it have been end up almost one month.
Yesterday I have get my result,em...consider not bad,better than before a lot,but still not really satisfy about it.

Nowadays is busy for FYP, it have been quite long time I din think about previous thing,not really long,around one week and more.

But we still weird,perhaps..
we both trying to become best friend back,may be not we both,may be just me,I dunno.

For me,I am really ok,But for u,although u keep telling me you are ok,is I think too much.But actually I really can feel is differ with last time.

Last time u will share your happiness or sadness to me.
This time even u so satisfy and happy with your result,u seems not willing share out your happiness with me..It's really differ.

Never mind, as Chris said what if it's means to be,then it's,if not ,then let's go.

It's kind of complicated feeling,recently,feel like I have lost one best friend..haiz..

To u,
Hoik,what happened to u?I am really hope we can be like last time,share our happiness,sadness together.Hope our friendship can remain back and can last long =)

Get back to my Life,
F.Ng

I am not good

How I wish every time when we have any problem or arguement,
u can sit down and talk properly with me..
For me,this is important for us to communicate..
But for u, u will choose to avoid and let us cool down for few day after that just let it be..
U always will never tell me how u feel,I always get know from your friend,when they tell me only I realized that I have did something that hurt u..

Remember,I am not that smart,I am not that clever..
I can't even regulate my emotion well..
I am stupid,

I need u to tell me how u feel..
what u want..what u don't want..
I dun even know..

until tat time,heard from friend only I realized there a lot of thing that u dun wish to do..why don't tell me earlier..

maybe is my problem,
I am not enough smart..
I am not enough sensitive..
I am not enough care you...
Perhaps..

all is my fault..
I"m sorry...

I am not good...


Always be with you,
F.Ng